July 26th, 2007

writing

In which Work and Writing are talked about... along with Life

You know, I realized I haven't really done a proper post in a while, so bare with me, this could go on and be a bit sloppy. But then again it is me who is writing this...

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And lastly... me.

I'm ok. Just abit over whelmed and confused and sometimes would rather just stay in bed and not have to deal with it all. I put on a good front and a pretty smile. I laugh and joke, but just need to get away.

Once more my friends were harping on me for not going to the doctor. Nothing is wrong, it's one of those female things they were refering to. I just don't see the point. I'm not haveing sex. I'm a virgin. But ya, I guess if they can give me something for these dang cramps (like the one I have now) then maybe it works. But I just don't see the point of being put on birth control or something when I am not going to have to protect against anything. Why mess with what God made in the first place? Yes, yes. I'm going to make sure that the doctor they go to is in my plan and just do it. I'm just so scared... maybe I can schedule it when my friend goes... when ever that is.

I don't think I am depressed, I just need a break. I need to get my work enviroment on some kind of even level like it was so I am not having a intinum-publisher who annoys the hell out of me sometiems. I need to figure a way out to ask if they give raises, and why the hell on my YTD earnings it is only $12,250 when when I figure it out by per-paycheck it's not that figure. All I know is I hope to God I get some good returns on next years income taxes. And the odd thing is that I have been there for a year... it should be a bigger YTD number. See why I don't do math?

Life is just... hectic, and I am trying not to have to run to catch up with everything, but so far I seem to have to. And yes, I have thought about moving to another job. But that's like hard work. And there is so much here (friends and contacts), and so much I can learn (ok add to my skills and resume) ... and I'd hate have to pack and find myself a new place or move in with my parents again.

Ok so will stop with the bitching... I have to go to several places now anyway. A reporters job is never done.

*huggles f-list* If you read this, thanks - if not, I don't blame ya!