July 18th, 2010

call_in_dead

OMT: Look who is posting again...

what the heck, a third post in so many days? I think...

Anyhow, just a bit... blah. Not hungry enough to eat with family, and just really... blah. I've been putting some characters down on paper and strung a few words together and have a few pages of stories, but just get really bored. Normal when I am just ... I don't know. I think the coffee - had two cups - are getting to me, a bit juttery, but not like, OMT, lets like partayyyy!!... more like, leave me alone, no wait, come talk to me. no, leave me alone... err... but sit like, far away.

Just a lot on my mind I guess. Dad and Mom are in the dining room, mom with her drawing, dad on his lappy organizing TV and movies on DVD/CDs. Ani is ... I think on the other computer in the other room (we have a lot of computers at the "Big House"), my brother is in his room, and the pets are... where ever the other people are. I'm simply not feeling productive. I know I should be working on my quilt, or writing, after all Ani's been able to bang out fic, and I've been tinkering, but just not... in the mood. Ya, that's more like it. A book and a mug of tea doesn't even sound appealing. grr...

Just feeling a bit withdrawn and awkward, really wish I didn't feel either, and that I could get past the whole "my writing is just crap, why bother?" line that's floating in my head. Dear me, now I'm getting even more down... shoot me.