Month 5. The closet is shrinking.

So yesterday was officially the start of the fifth month of this weight loss and lifestyle turn around. I started at 144 around January 1, today I am 122.8. WOW. just ... wow. My goal is 119. I have been circling that 124/123lbs for a few weeks, and it's been really hard since I so hoped to get back to small bits of yummy indulgence - like muffins. Or pasta. Or ... insert something really carby and starchy.

Life is really... really... busy. I am kind of hitting a patch in this Grade class - one assignment done, only five more to go... BUT the next few are all about how using data will help me formulate an action plan, and those who know me, know I teach English, read and write because math is not my friend. I can desegregate data, but it's not the fun, highlight of my day. And waiting for the said "fun" data is not exactly my strong suite either - I want it now so I can get it done and over... alas I am waiting.

In addition to Grad class, and teaching full time, I have two extra students who are homebound - meaning these students have something that is wrong and they cannot come to school (illnesses, severely broken bones...), and I have to go after school to tutor them. Not too bad since I can work on Grad class while they work on real class, and we are all happy - it's just a long day all around. Today I am meeting with my new student – just got him on Wednesday. Saturday is the easiest for them…  make them all happy!

So needless to say, I am kind of tired all the time, and have been vegging when I am home. However, the paychecks should make up for this. I did buy an Amazon Fire HD 7” reader tablet tho…. Nice present to myself (and it was on sale). I need to make a case to house it and the wireless keyboard I also got (that one at Walmart – it was only $20 vs $50 off of Amazon…), and rehem my skirt so I can wear it minus the hooker heels. Also now that I am down a size, most of my pants don’t fit, so I broke out the smaller sized pair of gray slacks I had bought when I bought the bigger ones – because now the bigger ones can slide off J SOOOO EXCITING!! However, this means hemming and sewing, so I think I will do that when I get home from todays meeting…. Speaking of, I guess I better go, I’m meeting at their house at 10.

Off I go... the new skinnier version. Oh this years Dallas Comic Con I can fit into the cute shirts and not be self concious - that has been the best reward in this journey. And the fact that I soon can have a Panara Bread blueberry muffin.... not that I have thought about it too often.
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12 weeks (and some change)...

WOW!! I just counted and since Jan 1, the official day of my no/low-carb lifestyle reboot, it has been 12 weeks (and a few days...) In that time I have:

- Completed my second grad class (and earned a 100 - maintaining that 4.0 GPA!!)
- Completed the first half of spring semester of teaching — in my 6th year now... still great to do a countdown!
- Started at 144(ish) and as of this morning, down to 125.4!!! Bye bye almost 20lbs!!

My goal is to go down to 119lbs... why? Well, because it's lower than 120s, and I have a bit of "flex" pounds — so If I get back to 123 - or 125 - it's easier to start there and kick myself back down to maintain.

Since I completed my course early (and was able to enjoy Spring Break last week without any books/teaching woes...) I had 4 weeks (now 3) till my next grad class starts mid April. My goal is to start my in-home strength training. I have a book that has some awesome (simple) exercises and takes about 30 min to go through (or less... it's been like over a year since I did any) and figure I can start putting it into my routine while I am not doing grad class.

I also picked up an extra teaching assignment, and has a few perks. Besides it's a few extra $$s, it also gives me a slightly different way of teaching — more tutoring/monitoring, since it's only one student. I visit her house every week for a few hours per week, delivering/picking up class assignments, helping where I can. She should be out till mid/end of April...

Tomorrow is back to school, for our last weeks before summer... So far I'm slated to teach summer school, but enrollment could change. Mid-July I will be off to Germany for 3 weeks with my Mom and Dad, my brother coming a week later. Some awesome things to look forward too. Like eating pretzels... mmmm..... pretzels. Hold on I'm having a moment.... or that yummy bag (or more) of the German Christmas cookies in my pantry.... Ya, I know where I "hid" them. But they are still there... uneaten.

As far as my quilting.. well I have the one I posted a pic of last time, done. I guess I should post another pic of it. I am also working on a hexagon pattern and it's so cute. Lots of work, and it was supposed to be a gift, but I don't think I'm letting this one go. I do have another design I will do as the gift. Too cute.

And that's about all...

Day 60 of my captivity...

so here is a pic from 2 days ago - and for the past few days it's been in the 129s!!! I'm free from the 130s! It's nice to both see the scale AND my body changing. It's a habit to see if the fat rings are a bit less fat. We all do it, no judging.

On with other updates: spring break is in 2 weeks! I am ahead by a week or so in grad class! Next week my students will be more or less working independently!

My spring break project is in the mail - NOT that I needed to get this, mind you, but it's Amy Butler...- I ordered fabric to make a summer/ prom dress. Amy Butler is a fabric designer, by the way. I found some cute ideas that are simple dresses on Pinterst, but of course I want to kick it up - so it's a simple dress made from a pattern from a t-shirt that fits, basically extend it to the tenth you want, slanting it out, and boom, dress. I make it complicated because I'll use 2 fabrics and want the bottom to be very full, so a hyper wise A-line essentially. I hope I ordered enough fabric - or I'll just put panels in it.

In the meantime, I am making more baby burpers, and my project!saturday from yesterday yeilded half a quilt.
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This morning I made the next 2 panels, so only one more to go - but my sewing machine devised to get an attitude and mess up the tension, so I worked on grad work - which I'm taking a break from.

Later I need to run to stck up for the next 2 weeks of food - yogurt is a main staple in my diet. And eggs. And chicken.

Omg will my neighbors turn off the bass on their techno music! My desk is in the living room and all I hear is club music!! Ok - back to study I go, just a few more pages and then fix the sewing machine and quilt in my happy place. Oh and grocery shop. Hmm priorities.

Day 46

Sorry for the lack of updates... and the lack of lbs lost. I'm down to 132.4 - not really where I wanted to be so far in. But it's about a solid 10lbs, somedays the scale goes down a bit more to 130, but this morning that is what it read.

Teaching is going well. We are winding down our Persuasion Unit this week by analyzing the film "The Day Earth Stood Still" for the tactics it uses to persuade. I'm looking forward to a short - 4 days! -  week but that also presents other problems like "why isn't it FRIDAY yet," and "it so doesn't feel like a Tuesday - it's Monday in disguise." But we shall prevail! Or die. Only a few more weeks and then it's Spring Break.

Speaking of... Spring Break is traditionally when I go in for my spring hair cut. I usually get it all short and rocker chick style, and come back for the last half of the semester ready to throw down... the 0s. But having long hair - shoulder length is long for me at the moment - is kind of (no pun intended) growing on me. I put up my hair in loose buns and the students thought they were nice. It's not as much as a pain as I remember. We shall see.

Grad class also finishes up the week of Spring Break, so I will not be totally school free. This class is stressful in some ways, but really helpful. It's classroom management and I am alternating between how bad I must be as a teacher, and how I am really doing something right. I like that there are tips I can actually see myself striding toward, and now have some ideas and tools to improve my class next year. I spoke to my councilor at the school and he was saying that there is an alternative program I can take over the summer that has much more flexible terms - basically a 3 month class and all you have to do is do the work. No weekly deadlines! So I may be able to stay on track and do my vacations and see my family and friends AND be stress free(ish)... I'll decide which class I want to do when it comes closer to the summer. My next class after this current quarter lasts until mid-June.

Hmm.... I think that's pretty much it. 

Day 25....

And the scale says 136.0.... not sure if I believe it. I don't think my flabby belly is as flabby, and my pants seem to be a bit looser. I moved the scale off the bathmat it usually is on, and put it on my floor, and suddently I gained 6lbs. On carpet I am 96 lbs. :) SOOOOOOOOOO not true. I will stick to the 135 because it's on the most consistant place I am always weigh myself.

On the Masters degree front, I'm in week 3, and omg.... I feel like a right failure with half my classroom management! I want to cry when I read the book, but when I do my reflective posts, I can be a bit more realistic. I am not horrid, just needing help. And I am going to try to change some of my ways... it is hard to break habits.

School is going well. I am currently enjoying teaching persuasion in a new way - different than from how I did it in Speech. At the end of March the students will be taking their state test.

I finished a quilt for one of my students - a "Fault in our Stars" quilt. He loved it, and now I am moving to making baby things - mainly burpers. My friend's daughter is pregnent and I am having fun squeezing time in to make some cute burpers. I'll post when I have them done - I am making one as a rainbow, and one in as a Teenage Mutent Ninja Turtle. I will do a few more - I cut one to do a cheveron pattern, but I am having a hard time figuring it out as a small pattern... so I may end up making it into a small blanket. Any further suggestions for designs? I need to figure out a few more... her pattern is animals, and green and brown, the original was TMNT, but now is monkeys? Or animlas in general... But since it's burpers, mostly I am thinking good solid patterns and some applique/stitches.

Alrightly... so back to my making of burpers. 

Teaching, Grad class, and maybe 1lb lost...

So last week was the first week back to teaching after winter break. It was an odd week since I was only in the classroom for 3 days. Two days I was on campus but was a teacher-leader for "Challenge Day" - http://www.challengeday.org/ - for the second year. It's more draining than the worst day of school, but so worth it! When I got back to the classroom I felt I had the strength to tackle a problem I had let built up in me and the classroom - the utter lack of respect I felt from most of my classrooms. I smacked them with it on Thursday and Friday seemed a bit better. We shall see how tomorrow and the days after will go.

Friday my second grad class opened - and very appropriately it is Classroom Management. The hardest thing a teacher sometimes has to manage. I started reading the first of 2 chapters for this week and I am reading just the basics right now and part of me feels kind of defeated. I have taught for 6 years, subbed for 2 on top of that, and still I am beating myself up for not seeing the basics. Well, I am not all bad, and I am doing a lot of the good, just the fact that my class is not my dream classes is what is getting me down at the moment. I hope this course will really kick the intellectual fire and give me tools I can use. So far, even so I am down(ish) I know I can improve and WILL IMPROVE. I sat down and put the timer on for 1.5 hours (this is my break and than maybe an ep of Bomb Girls) and still have half of chapter 2 to do, and two articles. Last night I wrote down the first 3 Units in my planner and went to bed with a daily and weekly plan. I hope to get a lot done on Sundays, take about 3 hours or more (split between morning and afternoon) and after school - it worked well last semester. I also have observations I need to schedule for U4 so I hope to get those scheduled this week. There are at least 2 discussions that I need to do each week, and have to upload them to my "vault" but I am having problems accessing it so I may have to contact tech for that...

In the weight-loss category, I *think* I lost a pound. I kept getting different numbers so I moved the scale to my kitchen and still got another number. So for the record, 1/11 is 140.0 - that way it is written (for the world to see and so I can keep track of the number). I have not eaten anything too high in carbs over the last week and battled the "why not eat cake" moment. I had greek yogurt this morning. I eat 2 scrambled eggs every morning, drink 1/2 to 1 cup of tea (depends on if I remember it is right there), have a snack of protein bar or handful of nuts during my conference period, yogurt for lunch, maybe a protein bar or drink mid afternoon, chicken and protein shake, or just one or the other for dinner. I am not motivated to workout. *ducks* never have been. This will be week 3 of protein only, and I am hoping for some tangible proof that I am loosing. The weekly scale is ok, but I'd like the spare tires to start deflating slowly. But not too slowly, but I know it will be slowly... :(

Also if it's going to be cold, than can we have some snow - on the weekends? Because I like my days off in Spring semester, there are already too few. February can't come fast enough either since the first weekend I am heading back to Dallas for Dallas Comic Con - Fan Days. And Stephen Amell and John Barrowman will be there.... *diezzzzz* 

Well... that went fast.

So I had meant to post everyday since 2015 started. And obviously it has taken 4 days to do so. Oops.

So here is the deal. I have gone back on my super restrictive diet ... er lifestyle shift. This means I have turned my back on carbs (bread, cookies, flour and gluten based thing/heavy amount), I have also dropped the veggies (anything that is not protein) - and indulged myself in protein. And a small, small, amount of carbs that come with some of the high protein things.

Today was the toughest day - I found some cookies in my bag, and I stood in the kitchen trying to convince myself that one -bag- would not be harmful. I was strong - they sit in my cupboard along with the other cookies. Uneaten, I may add. Tomorrow I must make sure I have to pack protein shake, bar, and my lovely lunch. Actually, its Cordon-Bleu, so it's delish!

I am going to do the pure protein for about 2-3 weeks, if I can manage maybe to the end of the month. The first week of Feb. I am traveling back to Dallas for Comic Con, and that may be my next transition point.  I have found some wonderful coconut flour to make some pizza dough. I made some "cloud bread" - eggs, cream cheese, and cream of tartar. It took FOREVER to whip the egg whites to stiffness. I don't have a blender, so a whisk was my friend. It sucked. But it made some "bread" rounds, so I can try one in the morning - with the discarded/messed up egg whites and egg yokes.

And so there we have the beginning of 2015.

Summer time..... vacation planning

So... my parents are going to celebrate their 40th anniversary next year, and as a family we are planning to vacation together. I think the last time we did this was in 2010 when we went to Connecticut to celebrate Grandma's 90th birthday. And I think that's also when jessm78 and I spent the day on Long Island too! Good times...

Anyhow, back to this summer... working as a teacher I get "the whole summer off" (hold on, let me stop laughing about that one...) and so I am the one with the most restrictive time table. My parents can go for as long as they want, I have to be back on US soil and back at my house by mid-August, my brother has to just give his work when he wants his 2 weeks off. The places we want to go is to Germany (we have family and tiah15 who lives in the same city as our family) and ..... ENGLAND!

starbuck1980, campmotha, and coexist_love I will be back on the other side of the pond! :) YEAH!!!  So, since I have been to London and know peeps and places, I'd ask if there is anyone who would shout out some ideas. I'd love to see Stonehenge. I'd love to do Scotland, Wales, Ireland.... but we only have one week, and a to be determined budget.

.... weee!!!

*testing.. 1...2...3....*

WOW. I didn't realize HOW LONG it had been since I actually posted (let alone actually look on here...) SOOOOOOO SAAAADDDD!!

So as the year ends, shall we do a quick "where did she go"? Yes... let's...

2014: A Retrospective

The start of this year found me starting the second year teaching at Ellison HS, Speech and Journalism.

Jan: Learned my grandma passed away, and came back to Dallas to spend a weekend with the parents and brother, to figure out what to do ... mourn...

Feb. - March: Worked. Spring Break. Worked.

April: Traveled up to Connecticut to bury my grandma. She was cremated after she died and my aunt wanted to wait until the ground thawed. Only my parents and I were able to go, and we took long walks on the beach, reminisced how we missed the water, and of course took our last tour around the house and got some memory pieces. I came back to Killeen on the night of Prom, and went from the airport to Prom. My students were so glad to see me - I love my Newspaper kids so much!!

May - June: School wound down, I was renewed for another year, so celebrations! So awesome to see your students complete their journey and see them off to the next. Afterwards I realized why in the past 5 years I had never done it... it's exhausting to sit through 500+ names!! I was also accepted to teach summer school, so I spent 3 more weeks teaching. I also did graduation for the first time ever, and that was fun!

July - Aug.: Summer was coming to an end, so I spent time on my parent's couch. Naturally. 2014-2015 school year also saw me moving from one classroom to another - and switching from Speech back to English. I kept Journalism and Newspaper - I'd fight for those classes. My parents (and a few students) helped me pack and move my room from half way across campus, and upstairs to downstairs, outside into a portable. Weeeeee...... I took another week to decorate and a few students (I pay in food, they don't say no to that) help to get the room all back to normal.

In July I took the GRE the test to get into Graduate school, missed my entry by 4 lousy stupid points... and decided to look at my options. I ended up being accepted into Capella University, an online school, and am on my way to get an M.S. inCurriculum and Instruction.

Sept.: I had to basically re-learn a few things in English 2, after not teaching it for 3 years, and also how a bigger department does things...

October: Austin Comic Con. Grad classes start. Dallas Comic Con. Teach. (Basically, a blur)

November: Stress: Teaching full time, Grad class heating up, and NaNo!! I made it all work - and won. And I turned 34!

December: Teaching and Grad class ended at the same time, and I passed my class with a 4.0 (an A). Raced to Dallas with my cats and am enjoying 2 weeks off from teaching and 3 weeks before my next grad class starts.

*huff huff*

So... bring on 2015!! This year is my parents 40th wedding anniversary and we - as a family! - are planning a trip to Germany and other places in Europe. That will be around July/Aug before I go back to teaching (because I just am so sure I will be getting my 4th year contract!)

I am making a commitment now to post regularly (yes, I am sure we have all read THAT somewhere...) but I really wanted to have written when I started my 6th year teaching and document the struggles and joys of teaching and going to school myself. So, I will do that for Spring Semester (and beyond) - also I want - need - people to keep me accountable in my weight loss. I have gained all the pounds back over the last 3 years and I can feel my body protesth loudly and I just hate how I look. So I know the tools, and am going to be implementing them. But before I start the great purge, let me just eat this box of chocolates... and cookies.... and more chocolate before Jan. 1.